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Mark Glover
02 January 2008 @ 12:03 am
I generally hate coming up with New Year resolutions. It seems so small minded to be thinking of little things to change about myself, when really it is the big things that are making me unhappy.

If I'm to be stuck feeling inadequate for the rest of my life then I'd like it if this could be the year when I find a way of turning those feelings into the driving force behind some really fantastic things.

There are so many things that I want in life: to lose weight, to read more, to get things done with time to spare, to practice my trumpet and enjoy playing it again. I'm sure I'd be happier if I could just do the things that I want to do. Perhaps if I wasn't so tired so often....

So anyway, my plan for 2008 is to just try harder to be everything that I want to be. I just wish it wasn't so incredibly hard going!

Happy New Year everybody :-)
Current Location: Saddlers Court
Storm Forecast: aggravatedaggravated
Music Box: Holst - Jupiter
Mark Glover
09 August 2007 @ 01:41 pm
So I've been planning for the last couple of days to put up some photos of my new flat, and at last I am doing so. Now, if I can just remember how to do an LJ Cut....Collapse )

So, there we have it. A whistle stop photo tour of my new place. If you want to see anything in more detail, you'll just have to come and stay won't you?
Current Location: Saddlers Court
Storm Forecast: hungryhungry
Music Box: Bon Jovi - Always
Mark Glover
08 August 2007 @ 02:00 am
Perhaps the best way to get back into the habit of posting here regularly is to go back to doing what I used to do; ie writing something before bed, no matter what time it is and what time I have to be up.

Of course, doing that would get me out of the habit of trying to go to bed at a sensible time, which is something I've been working on for a while. I guess you can't really win either way.

The main purpose of what I expect to be a rather brief post is to tell you that I have internet access at last! A whole day earlier than expected in fact. I can't help but wonder why BT bother setting dates for these things if they don't intend to stick to them. Still I guess I can't complain, as getting the internet on the same day as I assemble my desk and computer is seriously cool.

Also today, I took delivery at long last of my sofa, book case and wardrobe. This completes the list of furniture I felt I needed to make living in my flat possible and I have to admit, it is looking pretty cool now that it's finished. Tomorrow I'll finish tidying it up and shall buy a hoover, so that I can suck up all those stupid little bits of packaging and dirt that have become a feature of my floor over the last week.

I don't have anything else planned for tomorrow, since I had been expecting to be in for the internet man, so I'll take the time to photograph this place in its finished state and shove the photos up here for you to enjoy. I took some on Friday to show the family at the weekend, but they are on the laptop, and at any rate are somewhat out of date now that I have al this new furniture.

Anyway, it isn't getting any earlier in the evening, so I should probably call it a night now and go and sleep for ages on my beautiful new bed, with all its delicious comfyness.

P.S Icon chosen because I saw a V figure in Forbidden Planet yesterday when I was in London for Elling (which was fantastic btw. For a more lengthy summary of the show and all the John Simm goodness, take a look at aralias's journal, as she basically said what I was thinking) but also because I just want to dance everytime something fantastic gets played by BBC Radio Bristol, which is all the time!
Current Location: Saddlers Court
Storm Forecast: happyhappy
Music Box: Bon Jovi - Runaway
Mark Glover
22 June 2007 @ 08:51 pm
So the exam results are out in an unoffical capacity. That is to say they aren't shown on the official exam results page on the UWE web site, but they are shown on a page called "Academic Record" on the UWE portal thingy. Not really sure how much stock to put into these things, since they are apparently subject to change, but *shrug* for what they are worth, here they are:

Investment Management - 10
Organisational Analysis - 29
Strategic Management - 41
EU Law - 39
Law of Torts - 32

So, there we go. 1 passed, 4 failed. If I was any good at maths I'd have passed Investment Management be able to tell you how much worse I did this year than last, but that sort of thing is beyond me, especially when I've not had any dinner.

I'm not really surprised to be honest. IM I knew I'd failed. Having found myself unable to do the sums on the paper, I spent the last 10 minutes of the exam adding up the possible marks I could have got for the questions I answered to see if I could pass on them. I couldn't.

Law of Torts is a bit sad, because last year it was my favourite module, right up to the point that I failed it spectacularly. The coursework this year was very annoying, as it was basically the same piece as last year, but I only got half as many marks this time round. Sadly can't appeal it. EU Law is a little more encouraging though. Only one percent off a pass. I'm hoping that when it gets reviewed they'll push it up, if only to get rid of me after 2 years. I passed the coursework anyway, so at least it isn't the whole thing again over the summer.

OA is about what I expected. I got 10% on the January paper, so even passing the coursework and doing (presumably) better of the second exam meant I didn't have much hope of passing. Once again, only the exam to repeat in August.

Quite surprised I passed Strat Man, as I don't think I really knew anything for the exam, and I spent the entire coursework slagging off my bosses in Catering Services.

So yea, no real surprised. Sadly though, I still can't bring myself to care. I'm not sad I failed four modules. I'm not happy that I passed one. My only feelings about the August resits are that it will be a stupid waste of time having to attend them.

I know that makes me a terrible human being, what with throwing away my intellegence and opportunities and how I'm letting down everyone who has invested in my future over the years. I know, but I still can't make myself care. My entire future is worth less to me than the small amount of time I will have to waste over the summer revising for and attending my exams.

And so, revision will not be done. Coursework will be left til the last minute. Brains will not be flexed and effort will not be spent. Life is to short to worry about......well, anything really.
Current Location: Selbrooke Crescent
Storm Forecast: boreddon't care
Music Box: Meat Loaf - Bat Out of Hell
Mark Glover
16 June 2007 @ 11:46 am
Well, it is a Saturday morning and I'm a) awake and b) not at work. This is quite rare these days, so I've decided to make the most of it by posting here for the first time in ages. So what, you may ask, have I been up to over the last.....month and a half during which I've not been updating here.

The short answer is "not a lot that is worth talking about."

The slightly longer answer is that I finished my exams back in May and have been working fairly consistently since then. The exams themselves I felt went reasonably well, although I got out of the habit of predicting results a long time ago now. 6th July we will find out whether or not I'll need to do retakes or if I can sail through to my final year of education.

Work has been a mixed bag really. Officially I've been unemployed for the last couple of months, ever since the new boss came in and immediately threw out anyone who didn't have a contract in order to cut costs. Unofficially, this decision all but crippled most of the bars in Catering Services, and so since then I've had sporadic patches of work as and when various places have got so desperate they have no choice but to ask me to come in.

This has been quite irritating really, as I had hoped to be able to work full time once the exams were over and so be earning myself sack fulls of cash. As it is, I'm probably managing around 20 hours a week at the moment, about what I was doing during term time.

Outside of work, life isn't very exciting. Hayley has disappeared without trace and doesn't seem to be showing any signs of returning on a full time basis any time soon, which is absolutely fine with me. Jenny is still around, so I do at least have someone to talk to in Bristol.

Really though, life here isn't overly interesting at the moment. The only thing keeping me in Bristol is work, and the knowledge that if I move back home I'll just end up sitting around all day being bored and wondering why everyone I know is out at work. I did go home for a few days last week for my birthday, which I spent with my family; a sharp contrast from last year when I spent the day in London with Katy and didn't see my family at all.

Nevertheless I had a most enjoyable day, which included a BBQ and time on the boat. My "main" present was a SatNav, which is unimaginably cool, but I also got a trill seeker pack (where you have to choose one of a number of extreme sports to try for the day), several DVDs (House Series 1, Talladega Nights and Snatch), some books (The Stars' Tennis Balls and Paperweight by Stephen Fry, Chart Throb by Ben Elton, The Hard Way by Lee Child and 101 Things to Do Before You're Old and Boring), lots and lots of money and a USB fish tank (complete with real plastic fish).

At work my birthday was also noted, with the presentation of a card signed by all my colleagues and a very tasty chocolate cake :D At the end of June we are all going out to celebrate my 21st/say goodbye officially for my unofficial departure, even though I may be working there for another month afterwards :S

So all in all, things are a bit mixed up at the moment. I need to be looking for a new job for next year, even though my current one seems to be almost neverending, but not neverending enough that I don't have to look for a new job. Once I have a job that is guaranteed to put more than £500 in my bank each month for a year, I will be able to find myself somewhere to live for next year, so that I can finish off this damn degree and then go out into the world properly. With every day that passes, my irritation and impatience grows. I want to be put there looking for a professional graduate job, but those are just for graduates sadly, and I won't be one of those for another 12 bloody months.

I'm beginning to wonder if this degree is actually worth it anyway...
Current Location: Selbrooke Crescent
Storm Forecast: awakeawake
Music Box: Bon Jovi - Bed of Roses
Mark Glover
27 April 2007 @ 09:05 pm
Today I went into town for a couple of hours to enjoy the sunshine. I had to buy a present for Tim, as it is his birthday on Monday. This took much less time than I'd expected, as did choosing some DVDs to add to my ever growing film collection. I chose 2001: A Space Odyssey, Lucky Number Slevin and I, Robot, although there were plenty of others I ummed and erred about.

A trip to the bank reminded me that it was pay day (£600 better off then I thought I was) and so I decided I'd take a detour on my way to Starbucks and buy a book to read whilst sipping my coffee, since I'd neglected to bring one along. Sadly enough, I didn't have any books that I was planning to buy and for a minute I worried that I might not be able to find any I'd like to read, but by the time I strolled into Waterstones I already knew what I was after: Stephen Fry's The Hippopotamus, the most obvious next book, having read Making History, The Liar and Moab Is My Washpot by this time last year and none of his books since.

I'm not usually one for reading books before buying them, but I couldn't help having a sneaky peak at the blurb and "About the Author" pages on this one. By the time I got to the till I was grinning like a crazy person and already wanted to give Stephen a big hug.

I wasn't in StarBucks very long, owing to needing to post Tim's present before work, so I only got a few pages in, but I'm already hooked. The man is a genius and if I haven't finished the book before I return from Bristol, I've been working too hard and not reading nearly enough.

Current Location: Selbrooke Crescent
Storm Forecast: naughtynaughty
Music Box: Meat Loaf - Rock and Roll Hero
Mark Glover
27 April 2007 @ 09:01 pm

Works for me, but I really don't understand how you can be shy and outgoing at the same time. Most odd ...
Current Location: Selbrooke Crescent
Storm Forecast: relaxedrelaxed
Music Box: Meat Loaf - Not A Dry Eye In The House
Mark Glover
20 April 2007 @ 04:05 pm
When I found out, back in September, that I'd failed my resits and would have to spend an extra year at UWE to get my degree I had mixed feelings. On the one hand, I was annoyed that I'd be stuck in the same part of my life longer than I'd originally wanted but on the other I was glad because it meant I'd be able to spend a little more time in my new house with 2 of my 3 lovely new house mates. A lot can change over a year.

Last night Jenny announced that she wouldn't be staying in the house next year, as she'd decided to move in with some girls on her course. With Adam long since gone and Hayley due to graduate in the summer, I've decided not to stay either.

Several reasons for this really. Firstly, the landlords would be expecting me to find new tennents for the other three rooms. I don't know three people who are a) staying at uni next year, b) looking for a house and c) who I'd want to live with. Secondly, I'd have to move out over the summer and move back in anyway, as the landlords won't let me keep stuff here all through the summer as they want to use the house. Thirdly, this house has many problems and although it is on a par with most student houses, I know it isn't going to improve at all if I sign up for another year. Fourthly I'm just a little bit sick of living in student housing.

The other exciting news of yesterday was that my job is no longer as secure as it once was. In fact I'm so close to being made redundant I'm not sure whether to take my coat off when I go in anymore. I'm one of perhaps only two students who still work for Catering Services. The rest just got fired on the orders of some senior manager who has decided that catering is now so bankrupt that they need to ditch as much of the staff as they can. Students, being casual workers, were of course the first to go.

I've managed to hold on (for now) by the sheer luck of working for a boss who likes me and is prepared to fight to keep me, even if only until she retires in August. I'm very grateful to her, but she and I both know that the minute she leaves I'll find myself on the streets.

So, decision time it seems. I have a few options open to me so lets have a look at what they are:

1. I can apply for a low paid part time job somewhere else, find people who are looking for a home and find a new student place to live next year, hopefully earning enough to pay my rent in full.

2. I can look for a proper job, preferably in management and maybe still in a bar, as I have experience there, find people who are looking for a home and find a new student place to live next year, earn enough to pay my rent with loads to spare and hope that I can balance the two (or more) modules I'll be doing next year with a full salary job.

3. I can look for a proper job, preferably in management and maybe still in a bar, as I have experience there, give up on student living and rent a decent house or flat by myself, have not as much money spare and hope that I can balance the two (or more) modules I'll be doing next year with a full salary job.

Lots of problems with all three options, but all three are broadly possible. Once again, all this proves to me is that I am more than ready to leave uni and that it'd be a lot more practical to get a job and all the rest of it if I wasn't still going to have to give up a chunk of my time to getting this infernal degree. If anyone has any thoughts on which option I should go for, or anything else for that matter, I'd be delighted to hear from you.
Current Location: Selbrooke Crescent
Storm Forecast: contemplativecontemplative
Music Box: The Alan Parsons Project - Sooner Or Later (was I listening to this last time?)
Mark Glover
13 April 2007 @ 09:45 am
Last night I spent a few minutes flicking through some old journal posts to see what I was doing this time last year. There's a good record actually. I'd forgotten until now that this time last year I set myself the challenge of updating my journal every single day during the month of April. A far cry from today's pathetic once a month posting you might say and you'd be right.

Back then I only had the one blog to update and more time to do it in, what with not having a job. I think the extra free time allowed me to do more stuff than I do these days. Certainly by this point last year I'd been to the cinema nearly 20 times, whereas this year I've managed just two visits so far.

Live Journal was also more popular back then, at least with people I know. Facebook still hadn't let me on and so this was the place where most of my online time was focused. Clearly I put a lot of effort into my posts back then as some are actually funny. More socialising took place last easter than this. I guess everyone had more free time, what with not having to do dissertations all the time. We braved a picnic on the green, a hat party, Dave's roast chicken and a birthday party before the holiday ended.

This year I seem to have spent most of my time working on the video edit of Iolanthe for aralias. Sadly computer troubles keep slowing the job down, but hopefully I'll get there soon.

Not much else to report really, except that my car has gone hack to the MOT place this morning after they messed up the wheel balance last month while changing the tyres. It's been quite an uncomfortable driving experience since then I can tell you!

On Sunday I return to Bristol, but that is then and now is now which is also breakfast time, which is where I'm going now.

Current Location: Yateley
Storm Forecast: tiredtired
Music Box: The Alan Parsons Project - Sooner Or Later
Mark Glover
03 April 2007 @ 06:21 pm
And so now onto my second day of holiday and already I'm faling back into the routines that seem to return between each and every term of uni. Late rising, late going to bed and not much achieved in between.

Actually, that isn't entirely true, as I spent much of yesterday helping Mum in the garden and cleaning my lovely car, which had become absolutely filthy, thanks to the dirty car parks at uni.

Today hasn't been entirely unproductive either, with a few hours passed making some long overdue modifications to the admin area of my website. Not achieved half of what I'd hoped to though, as I've been struck with a catologue of erros that need debugging and workarounds that need discovering. It's all behind the scenes, so sadly no one else will be able to appeciate it, but my job will be made a little easier in the long run, which is important.

Tonight I've been invited Katy's for ..... I don't know actually. Film watching or similar I expect. The main criteria so far as I can see is that it should be reasonably cheap, which suits me well enough.

Sadly I've agreed to pick up Tim from Fleet station at about 11:30 tonight so I'll either have to leave Katy's early or go and come back. Bit of a nusience, but my car hasn't had a good run for a day or two so it'll be worth while.

Not sure what tomorrow will consist of, but I'm willing to bet that the usual routine of sleeping in, sitting on the net all day and then going to bed might have a role to play. Lets hope something interesting happens so that I don't go totally mad, or else forget how to move.
Current Location: Home
Storm Forecast: nerdynerdy
Music Box: 10CC - Speed Kills